Maturity Beckons...

Shortly after our chid was born an ex of Mr Severina reared her ugly head in our lives and tried very sincerely to take Mr Severina back into her life, even though our child was a little over eight weeks old ( a fact about which she was well aware, and doubly so her own sister had had a child at the same time which I thought made it worse as she wouldn't have liked her sister to be in a similar situation I am sure ).The person went to geographically huge lengths to do so and it was pitiful. I was very disgusted with this kind of behaviour from an adult for a very long time, and it made me angry that I never got to tell her that this behaviour was unacceptable and the behaviour of a spoilt brat.

Mr S and I were talking about it today and I was pleased to say I felt nothing, other than a deep sorrow that people who have had everything in their life think that behaviour like this is ok. Anyway, my point is, I think I have grown up. I wanted to punch this woman in days of yore, and would have done so given the opportunity, but now I just think how sad.

In another place and another life we maybe could have been friends, but personally there are some boundries you don't cross and when children are involved even more so.

Blind ambition is very ugly and this is the description I was given of her in this situation. Apparently she wasn't always like this....aaah we live and learn and HG wherever you are, I wish you peace and love.

First of all, thank you....

First thing to say is ' thank you ' to everyone who takes the time to read my meanderings.... I appreciate the time you put into clicking on this blog !

My parents came round for a bbq last night and brought my aunty with them who is visiting from the UK. She isn't actually a blood aunty, she is an old family friend actually, and was my dad's first girlfriend when he was 13. However, I had an ache in my heart the whole time as she is in the stages of early onset alzheimer's. She knows she is, and the frustration she has when she loses words or forgets something is so sad to see. She has tears in her eyes and I wish I could do something, you know, wave the magickal witchy wand or something to help her. I last saw her three years ago and there was no sign of it then. I guess many changes can take place in that time, hey I know they can, things can change in a split second can't they ? She lost her husband a few years ago and has lived alone since, so I guess that doesn't help either.... if anyone knows anything that might be useful to pass on to her, I welcome suggestions... more later chaps and chappesses !

OUTFOXED...DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR !

If you do nothing else for yourself and your mind, watch this film. You'll never buy most newspapers again ! Instead may I recommend the BBC or Guardian UK, there's not much else you'll get a fair and balanced judgment from.

PS I guess nepotism runs in the family, hence Sarah Murdoch being a morning TV host ! Bet she didn't have to interview for the role !

Sunday Sunday, looks good to me....

Laying in the hammock with my small girl was a delight today. Over indulging on caffeine, listening to Hayhouseradio.com and playing with dinosaurs ! That's damn nice !

I would like to say ' thank you ' to all my customers who are really inspiring me to greater heights of spellworking lately. If you have had trouble finidng me on Ebay it's because I changed my username to :- gravelly*beach*wiccan*services. I think I'll stick with this one as I feel at peace with it, the others haven't felt so secure or at one with !

More later I need to go and shut the business :)

The day after the long dark teatime of my soul..

Feeling dislocated but not introspective, or at least not the same as I was 12 hours ago.

We went to the Exeter Show this morning, and Little Severina had such a good time on the bouncy castle, ponies and other entertainments that I was enraptured watching her.

I so wish the bouncy castle was made for 70 kilo mummies too, I really wanted to go on it !

My little babe is now watching a magick show on the TV and I am watching the huge smile on her face and absolutely melting in it. Sometimes I wonder how I thought my life had any meaning before she came along. She can be naughty, she can be everything any little person can be, and I just adore her. I am so grateful that she chose Mr Severina and me to be her parents. I like to learn from her, to delight in the simple....and I like to hold that thought when I am being all A-type or carrying on about stupid adult pettinesses !

Mr S has a new tattoo, a very large red symbol on his back, a Buddhist symbol actually, for harmony, to balance his jet black five pointed star. My next tattoo is going to be the chokurei symbol in reiki....

I can't sleep

It's 1.42 am and I can't sleep, though I have tried.

I think I may be having an anxiety attack, which is not usual for me. I have been tossing and turning in bed, and I have been worrying about getting older, death, my family, all kinds of things. I am not a " dark of night worrier " usually, at all, and I don't know where these nightly fears have popped up from.

I feel a bit sick, have just had a biscuit and feel slightly better,

I feel rather pathetic, worrying about being 40 in 4 years time, but for some reason it is hanging around. I don't want to be a teenager, I am very supremely happy with my life and everything in it, I don't mind responsibility at all, but the anxiety is there.

I have even been thinking about the time when I left my ex-husband, which was the best thing I ever did, and I have no remorse about it, but I have been thinking ' How the hell did I get through it so easily, and wasn't it a shitty time ?"

I wonder what this is all about.

I am sure I will be my perky self in the morning, but right now I feel decidedly odd, dislocated and slightly depressed.

Serotonin !

I'd like to talk about serotonin briefly.

When you do something nice for someone or you are kind to someone, the serotonin levels in their body increase, as do the levels in your own body and the bodies of anyone bystanding and observing the kindness.

Thus, acting positively towards people and vice-versa makes you feel good, not only in the heart, but literally throughout your whole body system.

People ( myself included ) have paid lots of money to buy drugs which raise the serotonin levels in our body. Think of the money we could have saved, and will save in the future, simply by being nice !!

It's something to consider anyway isn't it ?

Two nice-creams and some biscuits !

Our company officially became a PTY LTD today and our daughter ( aged 3 ) is one of the shareholders. Just for a giggle we asked her what she would do with her dividend when she received it. She responded with " I'll by mummy and you ( dad ) a chocolate nice-cream each and a packet of biscuits from Paul at the Post Office ".

Dammnit, I hope she never ever loses that delicious innocence !

Who has stolen your wind ?

One other thing in regard to power exchange and giving power to others....when people are mean to you, or accuse you, or try to slander your reputation, if you fight back and defend yourself and try to explain yourself, it is like you then give the mean person the power. I don't mean, let people abuse you, but I think there is a way to handle it, where you keep the moral high ground, and the other person looks like a dribbling fool.

This is by no means easy and I have to keep working at it.

So the old heiffer from last year who gave me such grief, called me a bully, said I knew nothing about business etc etc...and I didn't chuck a nana at her, I didn't defend myself by saying " I do know how to run a business ", because then I would have been giving her accusations credence.

I simply let her rant, 'til she ran out of steam and asked her politely if she had finished, because I had lots to be doing. I said I wasn't going to justify myself to her, I believed in what I was doing and that was the end of it.

Now I was violently angry inside, I do not like confrontation, but I also believe in my authentic self and knew that I did not have to defend myself.

So six months later, she is angry and bitter ( still ) and my business is doing better than ever, with a fabulous, caring, highly skilled replacement.

I won't say it was easy, at the time I needed a little " pick me up ", but I felt I did and said what I had to. I feel like I dealt with it ok.

For my anonymous poster with love

Last year when I had hassles with an ex-employer who was slanderous and offensive to me, and someone who I let really
" get " to me, I took on board, a Wayne Dyerism and repeated it over and over to myself....

What You think of me is none of MY business !

If YOU don't accept the negativity from this other person, then consider this ?

To whom does the negativity belong ?

It's like, if someone gives you a gift and you don't take it or accept it, then the gift still belongs to them....any good dear child ? xx

Thanks Dear Go-go

SUPPORT YOURSELF! Some people constantly CRITICISE themselves. They say
things like: "I'm FAT." "I'm BORING." "Watch me SCREW THIS UP!" There are
two problems with criticising yourself: Firstly: You BECOME what you think
about. So when you criticise your own performance, it gets worse!

Secondly: Criticising yourself IRRITATES other people. Eventually, even
your friends will want to smack you in the mouth! Self ctiticism is not
humility, it's stupidity. So this is your job for the next 24 hours:
Notice what you say about yourself.

Starting today, say ONLY GOOD THINGS
about you! If you have nothing good to say, say nothing! And the result?
1. You'll feel better. 2. You won't irritate other people. 3. Your
performance will improve. Just today, support yourself! You may choose to
make it a lifelong habit!

Self-matters

Feeling pleased with myself today. Sometimes I let myself feel overwhelmed with the amount of work I have to do, but I am somehow keeping up with it and still enjoying it. My readings, especially the past life readings are flowing like mad..I reckon the reiki is helping :)

The man from the furniture place came yesterday to plan our office. We are having the office custom designed for us both so we can share it and keep things tidy. I am excited. I usually work off the kitchen table or my tall wooden throne with Lion's mouth arms and a hospital table ( you know the type, they slide over the bed for the patient when they have their food ). Better get saving !

I wish it would rain, I am soooooooo hot. Don't anyone ever tell you that Tasmania is cold, it just isn't true !

I think I have found Neverland...

I think i have found Neverland. It occurred to me minutes ago, that I have such a wonderful happy life, I love all and everything that i am doing, I have a great family, a beautiful home, and good health, I think I have crossed the path into the garden, into Neverland.....

If you need something to take you there, may I suggest daily affirmations ? They are one of the keys to the door of Neverland.....damnit life's great !

Finding Neverland...

Watched the movie tonight, and cried practically the whole way through !

Monday's Child & the Wolf Were Wed...

Every body has their own life, I have no idea what goes on in their lives, and have no place to judge at all.

BUT...I felt sad today.

Mr and Mrs and baby Severina all trotted off into town for a day out, looking at water fountains, Jaguar XKs, playing on the park, op-shopping and then of course the obligatory trip to the Golden Arches and a further play on the park there. Whilst we were there, there was a man who was so awful to his children. He had three children with him, on his own I'll grant you, but the way he was speaking to them, telling them not to be bad ( they weren't ), to stop being stupid, telling them they couldn't do things and just speaking with so much venom to them, I was horrified.

I know I have NO IDEA what this man was going through, he could have been in the middle of the worst time of his entire life, with debris and devastation all around him, but I just felt so sorry for the children. People were looking at him too, so it wasn't be being ultra sensitive, but he spoke to those children like they were something on the bottom of his shoe.

I sent the three of them, Liam, Margaret and Jacob ( I listened to their names ) and the father some positive vibes, for they feared that man, and you know what, I think I did too !

Have an attitude of gratitude kids !

Take a minute to.....

-remember all the things you are grateful for

-practice conscious, deep breathing

-scan your body for tension, breathe, and release it

-look in the mirror and tell yourself you approve of yourself

-acknowledge your emotions and feelings about something

-send love to someone or someplace on the planet

-forgive yourself or someone else

-tell someone what you appreciate about them

-write down a creative idea

-really look at a flower and enjoy it's essence

-practice FEELING the presence of Spirit guiding you in your life

Hand in hand, we melt in the heat....

I am so lucky to have a little plug in fan on my Mac, it is so hot today, and I don't do hot. I am melting and sweating like a detoxing addict here. Hahaha.

Things to be grateful for :-

1. Mr Severina and Little Severina.

2. An ability to write and love what I am doing.

3. Beautiful potato vine climbing up the fairy lights outside.

4. Nachos for tea.

5. Icy poles ( popscicles or ice-pops depending upon your location )

6. A soft cushion for your posterior when working on the floor.

Why ?

There are lots of things I don't understand.

I don't understand why people buy castings and spells off me, if they don't believe in them working. I totally believe in the power of positive spell working and it makes me shake my head when people buy spells from me, and expect without one single tiny piece of effort on their part, that they will work. I stress that the person receiving the spell has to meet the universe half way, but it is almost like they go " spell's cast, I should have instantly stopped smoking ". Technically if they truly believe then the likelihood of such swift change would be so, but people who buy and don't believe, well we're all wasting our time.

Anyway, I guess I made my point clear enough through feedback about this....and thank you to all lovely spell buyers who also take responsibility for themselves.

Sexy Witch.....hahahahah

How was your Valentine's Day ?

Ours was pretty good, I received some lovely jungly plants for the house and I took Mr Severina out for lunch, then out for an ice-cream and finally into town to look for granite worksurfaces, and office equipment....just to look, but with some good leads. The men are coming out to measure up and quote next week anyway.....we'll see.

Little Severina begins her dance classes next week and she is going to swim class on a Thursday too...maybe I'm a pushy mother, but she says she wants to go.....

Stuff to make you smile...

It's all been a bit heavy lately, so here you go...

Here are a few things to think about that you probably have never thought about;

Can you cry under water?

How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?

Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. But it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?

Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?

Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

What disease did cured ham actually have?

How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?

Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?

If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?

Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?

Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.

Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?

Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!

If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Does the "Alphabet song", "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star",and "Bah, Bah Black Sheep, all have the same tune?

Why did you just try singing the three songs above?

Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the window?

Russia Beckons

Believe me I can relate to my poster who has a chap who works 6 weeks on and 6 weeks off. My chap is off to Russia next month and then home and back every three weeks+ for the next year or so. He sometimes goes away for up to five months, all around the world, it's never a finite amount of time, we usualy know roughly he'll be away for at least three weeks and then it extends ( has been up to eight months ). He has been home since September, but now the music season in Europe is firing up and he will be on tour for the next year and a half....oh when a band releases a new album, the touring must ensue...such is the rockstarwidow world of the music wife !

I hear you sister....that's why I miss him for one day, cos he is often gone for months at a time....

Calippos, Jammy Dodgers and the Community Centre

Little Lamb and I spent a nice day today, having lunch at the local cafe, playing in the park and the local community centre ( it was empty except for us ) a visit to the op-shop there and then a relax in the house away from the hot damaging sun. Mr Severina had to go town so we were without him, and pined for him all day, as did he, and he messaged us to let us know how his day was going....

Scout the cat is laying prostrate next to me on the sofa, he is actually a very long cat when he is stretching from end to end. After sending him reiki, his paw seems to be getting better, so that's a relief.

I got my first 'good' on Oztion.com.au today, I have only ever had 'excellent' before. Didn't really feel a thing about it, thought I would have a mini-sulk, but couldn't be bothered. I realise the type of work I do is very subjective, and whilst I put my heart, soul and spirit into it, if people don't like what I say, or don't ' get it ' then there's nothing I can do about it. I am honest, I can offer no more. The only thing I do object to is people who send rude emails or who buy things and don't have any intention of taking the work seriously.

Aaah well, am rambling.

What the bleep do I know ?

Tried in vain to watch this movie too, but as with The Secret, I felt like I was watching one long commercial. Perhaps not as much as the other film, but nonetheless I simply didn't enjoy the " theatricalness " of the acting part.

I prefer to read.

Am feeling good today, last night when I got into bed I was completely enveloped in the bedtime reiki I had had sent to me, I basically drowned in sleep and it was a lovely feeling. Even the bed seemed big enough for a change..... and there was no fighting for covers either !

All my colleagues went back to work today where as I did not. Being on Long Service Leave is something I am enjoying a lot. I picked up some fresh coffees, breadcakes and eggs from Exeter and after dropping Miss-Gorgeous off, came home to work on my writing and hang out with Mr-Hotpants !

Have four months to rid myself of the need to teach, and re-educate myself, I know this is possible, I believe wholeheartedly this is possible, I know my future is in healing, both distant and hands-on ( massage ) and with a focus on spirituality. I take another giant step away from the Land of the Grade Seven student every day...

Positivity and Reiki !

I am about to go to noddy blinkums right now, but just wanted to say a cyber-thanks to the five lovely people who were with me and guiding me at my Reiki Two class today. I had a grrrrrrrrreat day.

Right now I am going to receive Gail's healing and send some of my own.

You may say I'm a dreamer....but I'm not the only one.....

Last word on the Ebay auctions !

I choose to make my auctions private.

a) Because it is an automatic setting on my garage sale program

b) Some auctions are perpetual auctions and are not private and can NOT be changed.

c) The nature of what I sell has meant some of my buyers have been hunted down by other Ebay members and called Satanists because of what they buy from me, by misguided hatemongers.

d) People buy spells for all sorts of things, including fertility and don't always want to make this a public thing.

e) Because they are my auctions and I can decide what I do and don't do to them.

As for paypal, having it only for overseas buyers is not confusing if the person buying reads the auction. I don't have it for Australian buyers for if I am selling an item for Buy It Now for 0.99c, I end up getting 0.65 c and let me tell you, it takes far more effort than 0.65 cents worth.

As to the lovely gorgeous luminary who apologised to me for not seeing a part of my auction, don't. You are lovely xxxxxx

PS:- You know the ass I was raving about last night, I reported him and his wicked ways to Ebay and I haven't heard from him since. However it turns out that friend of my chap's knows him ( even though he lives in Balmain ) and he is a man who has to take a lot of drugs for a medical condition and they don't agree with his personality, he is very very rude to VESPA scooter riders and apparently said he wants to take a S**t on one ( nice, classy ), and he is from the North of England....dammnit, I have something in common with him.

PPS

SOME PEOPLE MAKE IT AL ALL RIGHT, THANKS HONEY XX

Dear Severina,
Just been reading your blog spot and saw the revolting emails that loser was sending you. Don't let one person bring down all the good work and help that you give your people. If you are so "dodgy", why do you have so much business and so many loyal customers. He is just one of the many little people who are scared of others that go out and help themselves rather than sitting around stewing in their own inadequacies. You should email those replies to Ebay to show them how he conducts his business. There was no need for such a personal, defamatory attack on your character.

Stay strong!!

No names mentioned, you can't sue...

Hey Serverina_Tadeus_Spellworker, It's ****** here aka *** who lives in Balmain in Sydney the person who is also bidding on this Cap as A Surprise Gift for my Wife Claire, IF I am Lucky enough to Win this Cap, PLEASE have a look at my Ebay feedback, After 550 plus buys all from all over the world I still have 100% Positive Feedback- So I am a Genuine Buyer who always Pays Fast & Never Mucks about the Ebay Seller Ever. Fingers crossed it might be on it's way to Sunny Sydney, The other bidders details have been kept quite so I have No Idea who I am bidding against OR how Genuine they are & it's still 5 days from Auction's End!!! I Hope for You that this person IS as Genuine an Ebay buyer as I am. Thank's for all of your Help, Cheers for now

Hey Severina_Tadeus_Spellworker, Thank You for your Swift Reply. It is just that I've always felt A little uncomfortable bidding against someone who is hiding their Ebay ID. For IF someone IS Honest & Genuine in Every Single Aspect of their dealings & Are being Totaly Up Front, There is Just NO Need to Bid with their ID Hidden. For What IS there to Actualy Hide? A Wonderfull Wise Old Man once Taught me that IF a Man's Thoughts, Words & Deeds Match then they are Truely an Honest & A Trust Worthy Man. The fact that 5 days away from this auctions end someone IS trying to out bid me just does not make any sence when All They are doing is driving the sale price up & making it cost more to buy for who ever wins. When it would make more sence to Sit Back & MagaSnipe your Final bids in the last few hours, Min's or Seconds. That way they Avoid a Bidding War, Obtain a Cheaper Purchase Price & Multiply Their chances of Winning this Auction. I Smells A Rat Me thinks. Cheers for now

I'm prepared to declare my Ebay Bidders Details while The Other Bidder has chosen to Hide their Details. So for AN Absoloute FACT they are Bidding with their ID Hiden So YES who ever bids can see all of my details BUT none of the other biddrs details. This Ebay Auction is like All others Just for this simple fact

Severina_Tadeus_Spellworker, after having 1020 Ebay transaction to your name to say- I don't think they are hiding their ebay id. I have this as a privte auction:) Is a just not correct & you know it. You have listed this Item for Sale on Ebay so that Anyone who wants to Can Bid on it. So why do you think the other bidder has decided to Bid with their ID kept secret? IF they have Nothing to Hide ask them to bid openly. IF they are Honest they will have nothing to possible hide. Just log on to this item & check the bidding history and you will see what I am say is true. Looking forward to your reply.

I just logged on under my wifes ebay address & was still able to my details BUT no ones elses details. IF what you said was true I would not be able to see my detail as I too would come up as a having my ID kept sectret as well. Your regualr sale items maybe spritual But to Hide your bidders details while they are bidding? But once they Buy an item off you, ALL of your past customers details are for ALL to see on your Feedback page. So once they pay you and they leave you Positive feedback then it's OK to declaire their details even IF they bought an Esoteric item Off You? Is this NOT Fair to your past customers?

I have retracted my bids on this item As I just did NOT feel comforable with the manner in which you manage your ebay site. It has double standards. Once A buyer buys from You All of their details & what they bought from you and all of their past bidding details is there for all the world to see on your Feedback page. BUT while they are bidding to buy from you, You hide their details as they are buying Esoteric items, But for some reason NOT My Details? Maybe I was Not Esoteric Enough for You. So Magic Really Does Happen? Or is that Shit Really does Happen? Either way Some thing does Smell Right as after 550 Plus Ebay Purchases This IS the 1st time I have encounted this manner of Ebay Selling. The Real Pity was The Cap was going to be a Surprise Gift for my Wife as IT would really suit some of ther other Houndstooth clothing. But it seems that there are enough Nutters out there to keep you Trading. Go Good Luck for your Future Esoteric Sales. Regards

Do as you want. Our email notes have only been between us two & Since they have not been broadcast for the whole world to see, What IS Your Problem? Thin Skined OR Too Close to the Truth? After 550 plus purchases You are the VERY 1st EVER Ebay seller who has hiden the ID's of your bidders to protect them while they are bidding on 1 of your items, BUT then your willing to self promote yourself by being willing to show the whole world these very same Bidders ID's & all of their prevous purchase details after they have bought from You in your Feedback section all In the name of Self Promotion IS that NOT being Hippocritical? IF anyone hides something it's normaly for their own benifit NOT for the benifit of Others. Your Thoughts, Words & Deeds have Not Been Consistant. Fact is Fact & Truth is Truth, Or is that too Esoteric for you to Grasp? May you be very sucessfull selling to Tree Huggers & Nutters who Believe in your products.

And I logged in from two different computers one lap top & one not via differnt servers. And still could see my ID & the others were hiden. I don't make up stories as I don't have any need to OR any profit to be made from doing so. The same could not be said of you. And I have Not insuilted You for IF I did, I would Not Be So Subtle. I have just let you fill in the gaps - A guilty mind is always the 1st to Strongly Defend it's Self. Now just go away & Live Long and Prosper in your own Esoteric manner....

You require serious help - does your Doctor & social worker know that your hearing voices yet again...

Weirdo...

Then it get's totally insulting...

I am going to pack this Ebay shit in..I've had enough

Over a hat !

I am auctioning a hat.

This asshole emailed me saying because I keep my bidders ID secret that I was obviously not being honest and trying to up the bids on my item ( well duh ? It's an auction site, isn't that the point ).

Also that I wasn't honest, was obviously shill bidding, ( I think Ebay might notice that ) that I didn't conduct business in a proper way, that I was weird, that I needed to get a life, that I needed psychiatric help...blah blah blah... and I am am very f&&*ked off.

A hat, a bloody hat I ask you !

Turns out that my dear man sort of knows him through the scootering websites, even though he lives in Balmain NOT BONDI and types weirdly like this.

I Am A WeirD MaN, From BondI AnD I lIke To HarrasS INnocenT WitcheS...

I feel sick, saddened and annoyed with myself for caring...

All great suggestions girls...thanks.

I have to say I have tried the " I accept paypal,so please e-mail me for the address " without putting the paypal icon on the listing and I get theatrical, hysterical overseas buyers saying ' they don't understand and they thought they could pay with paypal, but I have done the listing wrong ". Even with a explanation as to why I have done it this way.

I guess we intelligent goddesses have to simply realise, that some people aren't that bright....oh is that elitist of me ? Yeah probably, but I can't be " Mother Fabulous " all the time.

Love you all xx

Do you actually know what you are buying ?

I sell a lot of things on Ebay, I mean tons !

I state very clearly what my terms are, very clearly, for I never want to be misunderstood, or seem nebulous with my information.

So please tell me why, when it clearly states, several times, IN LARGE BOLD LETTERS at the beginning of my auctions that PAYPAL IS NOT for Australian buyers, that I spend 20 minutes a day, refunding Australian buyers who have paid me by paypal ????

Do these people read my auctions ?

Do they even know what they are buying ?

Pleas enlighten me, perhaps I have missed something !

What the f@@* are we doing ?

PLEASE CLICK ON PHOTO TO READ ENLARGED MESSAGE.

Money flow, money shine, money grow, money's mine...

Am hiding away in my bedroom this morning as we are having the floors fitted and there is nowhere else at all to sit. Nowhere. We were going to go out for dinner, but as we have to move heavy furniture everywhere, we can't do that either.

Cosmic Ordering...why not ?

http://www.cosmicorderingform.com

and oh how they danced, the little people of Stonehenge...

We are getting a new bed...a beautiful custom made sassafras bed, and I can't wait. Well I can actually, but I feel very proud of this because we worked hard to save the money for it. Beds are very expensive, as I am sure you will know if you've ever bought a supportive and lovely one. Out with the old IKEA one, and in with a wooden earth-styled one. Our new lino was layed today in the wet areas of the house. After our dog-massacred floor and shutter episode, the insurance are paying up, and the house is taking on a new look. Our wooden floors go in tomorrow, and the house is really looking zen and less cluttered. Yippee, I love wood and I love earth tones.

More superficial, yet attractive dross later....

Snuggle up with my blanket..snuggle up real tight !

I am sat here trying to think of what to write, and all I can think about, is our little girl. Not in a sort of possessive manner, but I am wondering how her day is, if her ' Buzz Lightyear ' is still in one piece ( she took him to Playschool this morning ), if she has eaten her food and drunk her drink. She is a rockin' kid, we are so lucky to have her. She is athletic and intelligent and such a good mate to everyone. I am grateful for her every day of my life.

I often think about when I had a miscarriage. How at the time I was suicidal thinking that the child we lost was the end of me. Now I think, no I know, I can't imagine a life without our girl, and how we wouldn't have met her if it wasn't for the first horrible thing happening. My life is damn great !

I am not the person I was in the past, I have grown and I think it very funny and pitiful that apparently there is one person who still hates me for the person I was over eight years ago. I feel sorry for them, that they still care enough to hate me. If I was them I would have looked at me as a " learning experience " and moved on. But according to a rich source ( ie my very good mate ), this person still has the energies to hate me. Funnier still, is that they are always checking up on what I am writing. I do have to say however that I am not harbouring anything towards them and the things they failed to provide.. no rent paid, no money being contributed to household expenses...yawn....I'm bored now, bye !

Luv yer work Bill !

On Friday we had the delight and pleasure to meet brilliant and funny author Bill Bryson.

We were both very excited and pleased to see that he was as funny and lovely in the flesh as he portrays in his amazingly ace books. Gorgeous beard, lovely soft voice !

We also came to the conclusion the day prior to this that we wanted some changes in our physical surrounds, so we are having a huge continual clear out, which began with a garage sale yesterday at our business premises. We have a lovely, soft, luxurious IKEA couch that came over from California that we are saying " cheer ho " to, it's in great condition, but we have been keeping it for sentimental reasons as opposed to need, so out it goes...other things that have bitten the dust are :-a little weather house, that was dusty and crap......some teaching books...( don't want to think about that sort of thing ).......old ceiling fans......and more...but I have suddenly become too lazy to list the other things....

Some things that I can not say " toodle pip " to are :- my spiritul and esoteric books, and I continue to buy many of them, since books ( that are not about teaching in a high school ) are wonderful and you can never have too many, Plus when we have our library built, we will need some top books to fill it.

I also watched " The Secret " last night, and whilst I TOTALLY agree with the sentiment and ideas presented, I couldn't help thinking I was watching one great AMWAY style commerical....so I went to bed after an hour....